cherish

i know its so unfilial to say this,but this is how i truly feels.

why do i see a happy ,warming family everywhere i go,but just not mine.

they have parents caring about them,especially both parents,bringing them out,having meals together,everyone seems so happy,but not mine.

why do friends going home happily as there know there's someone out there waiting for them to come home,but im on my way home,i only had an empty house waiting for me.

probably my dogs are the ones waiting for me,the only attraction to make me come home.

how do you feel when you enter your own house,totally dark,the only source of light is from the buddhist table,your dad not working & always in the room,not even your maid is appearing,everyone just disappear in their rooms.

nothing feels like home? true?

NO.

my home seems just a sleeping place to me.i just come back when i have no where to go and its in the middle of the night and that's it.

my dad is so damn unreasonable,always finding faults to nag and scold you.

my mum is so busy working,when she's back we don't talk cause she will always just say im tired and give me that kind of irritated face when i always tried to entertain her so that we have smth to talk.but i gave up in the end cause her face really pissed me off.

and i ended up keeping myself in my room with only my laptop to keep me entertain till i fall asleep.

is this what a FAMILY should be?

with no conversation with ur dad and a sentence with your mum every single day

i feel the distance between us,i feel like a stranger to them.

i really miss my mum's cooking

i really miss watching tv together,with my dad mum sis and bro and run around playing tg

i really miss morning breakfast together

i really miss dinners together

i really miss my dad sending the 3 of us to school every single morning

i really miss my mum fetching me from school

i really miss roller blading at east coast park

i really miss swimming lessons every weekends and heading to hg mall for arcade

i really miss my mum bring the 3 of us to taekwando lessons every tuesday

i really miss visiting my grandpa every sunday

i really miss accompanying my mum to her office whenever im having holidays

i really miss going to crystal jade with mum and eating my noodle and mummy would have her porridge

i really miss going to ntuc,carrefour to restock all my tibits at home

i really miss uncles and aunties saying im like a photocopy face of my father

i really miss the first and only time we went to watch the first movie lion king movie at the cinema

if everything could rewind,i would wish

i didnt come back late everytime i play ball and leaving my mum alone eating at home

i will not grow up and dad could stil accompany us

i will take back my words that im tired i dontwant to go for breakfast

i will take back my words that i want to watch tv and dont go for dinner

i just wish we could just be like a family should be

not with when your only conversation your dad could talk to you is whether are you working anot,i just wish my dad could say dont work le i could provide you.feels so loved

not with your mum tired face,though i really understand she's tired,but when im always trying so hard to think what can cheer her up my efforts are always not appreciated

could someone fill this empty and cold house with some love

but i know,there's always someone out there,always being there for me

bringing me into his family,and share his joy of family with me

so much appreciated,really

there's no one other than my boy,PSZY

not forgeting my wonderful frienddddsss and teammatess for not forgetting me