cherish

some friends you've been through so much with, friends that you really cherish.
but someday,somehow, you see distance, you see she has other friends that can replace your existence.
how do you feel? what should i feel now?
you know, i really cherish this friendship so much that it is really affecting me.
i always tell myself to move on. so what if we're not that close anymore.
but fcuk i really cant move on. it just keep appearing in my head.
its seriously affecting my mood.
arrgggggggghhhhhh!
i don't know, but everytime i see you i don't know whether i should be happy or sad
happy cause you finally remember me and i did crossed your mind.
sad because it took you so long before you think of me.
i keep telling myself thats her character you cant blame anything.
but i'm not. i'm not that kind of friend that when you remember me than you msg me.
i really need constant reminders that i'm actually still your best friend
i don't know, i tried convincing myself so hard that its okay if we don't contact, don't see each other.
but its too difficult. for me
if this carry on i will constantly doubt am i still important in your life?
all the while i'm the one giving in to take the first move to contact you.
when am i going to be the one receiving your message first?
i know you still treat me as your bestfriend, i do too.
but just, i'm seriously feeling the distance.
you showed me you have better friends compared to me now.
sigh.

posted by HWEITENG @ 11:29 PM