cherish

anw, went to bugis with spongebob ivan and ranson.
ate, caught a pooh, shopped for ranson's shirt, spongebob aunt's pub, finally home.
no idea is it my mood swing or what?
but i just feel so unhappy.
if you don't want work, than tell me earlier, don't last minute tell me all this that you don't want to work, and cheap labour.
don't nag at me,it seriously spoils my mood.
you want acc me than don't nag at me, cause you are not even sincere to acc me.
you're making me feel im forcing you when i didnt even do so.
its not like i want to work what, if i had a choice do you think i will work?
if i had pocket money, i had enough money to even eat,travel without worries, would i?
you've got everything covered for you, i don't.
you don't understand the feeling of eating a meal and thinking how should i buy my next meal with a few cents left.
than you head home thinking to try to get some money for the rest of the days from your mum but you just couldn't bear to do that cause you juse know she herself don't even have money for herself.
i rather i go hungry, cause she has to do alot of work.
i want to work cause i don't want to see your face when im hungry, you get it?
i want to bring you somewhere to eat like every other couples do.
i don't want to be like a life burden.
i don't want to have my wallet without a single cent in it.
i want to go everywhere i want to.
I REALLY DON'T LIKE THE FEELING OF NO MONEY.
FUCK LIFE LIKE SERIOUSLY.

i know even if i ask from my sis for some money for the rest of the days before my pay she'll give.
but i dont want, i dont want cause she herself been paying the bills at home, ur own bills, ur own university debt.
i seriously don't want to be a burden to anyone.
i don't want to see people's faces.i fcuking hate to see that.
i want to live, on my own.

posted by HWEITENG @ 1:06 AM