IVY NG ZI WEI WROTE THIS FOR ME ME ME!!! :DDDDDDD
anyway bppp changed her phone! happy for her .
and happy 22nd monthsary to you and patrick.
and im glad he is treating you better as each days goes by. and you guys are getting sweeter. bp , we are almost similar.
theres one thing we are diff, it is you have a bf that loves you never give up on you.
yet i dun have this kind of bliss.
i always met those who throw me away like a thrash.
maybe like what i said. i love to torture myself so much that i always pick the wrong one.
nd you have to always tell me to move on, he is not worth it and all.
i know i deserve better, i know its the wrong one, i know he dun love me anymore, i know i shouldnt even miss him. i know i know so much thingys.
but why do i still feel so sad >? so hurt ?
why bpp>?
i have been hiding very well, pretending so great that no one should have know it.
but why not in front of you ?
at time, i dun dare to tell you im sad, i miss him, i cried.
because i dunno how to also .
i know, move on. i know, i really do.
im trying, very very hard.
i know i can do it. i know im a princess. i know im strong enough.
but bp, i have got feelings.
and 8 months is not short nor long.
but i do love him, and we have been tgt .
theres feelings, memories.
maybe all i need is time now.
bppp, thanks for everything.
always there for me. 24/7 .
listening to me rant. cursing me, hating me and holding me when i fall.
you are better than a boyfriend.
sweeter than a candy.
bitter than ku gua.
caring than a care bear.
lovable than anyone.
straighter than a ruler. ( str8 forward)
and lastly not cuter than me ! (:
thanks bpp.
TAY HWEI TENG. no one in this world, know me better than you do.
even if you dun, at east you care. :D
and you will never treat me like a trash nor throw me away.
loveyou ! (:=
god gave me all the rotten guys, but he also gave me the bestfriend i ever wanted.
HEHEHEHEHE SO TOUCHEDDDDDDDDD <3<3<3<3
hate you laaaaa bppppp :D
yes i totally agree that you like to torture urself veryvery much, cause u're just like me!
last time spongebob did all those shit to me i also torture myself !
but bpppp, dosent mean i never met the wrong one before, i have too. just that i got over it, and i got a better one :D
just like at first u gt ahbao. who dont treat u good. than u got daniel, who i think treats u better, SO THE NEXT ONE WILL BE THE RIGHT ONE! :D
bppppppp, i know its impossible for me to ask u dun be sad or dun cry or whatever. i know.
cause if u don't, I WILL SCOLD U WHY U SO NO HEAART! hahahahaah
butbut, bpppp , its ok for you to rant abt ur stuffs with me, i can hold on to my phone for as long as u want, just to accompany you rant all your stuffs to me .
its ok for you to cry, you dont have to hide it infront of me rmb? dun have to be scared bpppppp. I WONT EAT U UP WHAT SCARED WHAT DUN DARE MSG ME! HEHEHEHEEH no laaaaa just want to know that you don't have to suffer , cry alone, i will be there for you if u need me. just like how you are there for me :)
i definitely know you still cant forget abt him, BUT!
YOU WILL PULL THROUGH THIS:) not alone, but with ur d******,e***, ur classmates, ur secsch friends, and of cos ME! :D
hehehe
bppppp no matter you're happy, sad,angry or whatever ,i'll be just a phone away!
to be happy for you,
to be there to listen to all ur vulgarities when u're angry,
to be there to curse you in message,
to be there to say i hate you in my messages HEHE,
to be there for you anytime you need :D
HATE YA BPPPPP IVY NG ZI WEI!
HAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA
dont love me too much i shy [._.]
KIDDDDINGGGGGGGGGGGGG ;D
YAYYYYY! finally change phone!
after 2 yearssss
andand this is the first time since primary 6 that i hold on to a phone for 2 years before i recontract. not bad! proud of myself hehehe :D
thanks spongebob for accompanying me to change phone, though he never sleep a wink throughout the night, and went for training at 9 in the morning, before waiting for me at amk hub for me to end sch at 3 and acc me to find kokleong to change my phone :)
and thanks to kl i got my phone for $0 but actually was $148 hehehehee
spongebob so shuang he changed phone to samsung wave. tskkkk
so bliss kid!
HAPPY 22 MONTHS LOVE :DDDDD
just in a few hrs spongebob cooked french toast for me for dinner when i just merely said i want to eat ;D
cooked maggie mee for my supper while i was burning midnight oil for my project ;D
thanks for the love you've showered me throughout all this while and for the future !
and really, thanks for everything you've done for me love :)
today was supposed to be a good day, but well..
arrggggghhhhhhhhhh
so i shall blog about my happy moments only!
FINALLY GET TO PLAY BALL TODAY!
like 123167239872203843 years since i touch the ball.
went to school for project again, my holidays i think 8/14 days im going to school. -.-
met katherine after school and headed to cc :D
and saw felicia emily and vanessa, also 12324328437943204324 years since i last see them. think ever since the last teachers day when i went back to sch?
anw today's balling was a joke!
no idea why but i was laughing till i sweatttttttttttttttttt
hehe but coconut came hahaha, think not because of me than she come la horrrrrrr
TSK
and KOHPEIQI! i played ball with ur JN todayyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
plus plus he dunk todayyyyyyyyy
HEHEHEHEHEHEHE
im not a fan of him but i just want to make u jealous and i know you'll be reading this :D
sorry friend, im gonna move on.i willi know it really hurts, but i want to stop this and move on.just like what bppp say :Di stil have bppppp :DDDDDand i still have friends that i really cherish, its enough.
CHEEYEW's BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION ! :D
loves XCHJK ^^
not forgetting my sweetest boyfriend :DDDDD
spongebob was great today! why? cause he wake me up from my 1hr sleep when i only had 3 hrs of sleep the previous night and i went to school from 830 to 230 for my project til i collapse onto his bed for only 1 hr, HE WOKE ME UP! -.-
hahaha but he bought lunch for me hehehehe
pestered me to ehub!, claiming that he bring me go walk walk. HEHEHEHE but he really did :)
so i wanted to bathe before i go out, BUT HE INSIST ME NOT TO BATHE! WTH! yellow yellow dirty fellow
than we meetup with tw and sabrina and headed to arcade cause spongebob want to catch toys! and we really did! after so many trys.. but, its worth it! hehehehe seeing ur smile on ur face makes my day love :D
caught two elmo, one for him one for me! (spongebob say one hehehe)
ohhhhhhh wait, i name the blue one siaozarbo, the red one siaotarpo! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
cause all our toys gt name one, so this one also must name :D
headed back to cp and KOHPEIQI called! hahaha like 123443532554353 years nv see her alrdy!
but she at hg, tsk! nvm! meet up soon :D
back to spongebob aunty's house for world cup and im back home :D
aaaarrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
FML FML
i really really hate my life very much
when was the last time i am really happy, with my mind carefree?
father's day father's day, why my family like that.
what the hell did i do wrong for my 17 years of life.
i really hate the life im living now
I MISS SPONGEBOB TTM!
ohhhh work tmr :(
but thurs, :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD
i miss XCHJK!
I LOVE PATRICK SHI ZHEN YU! :DDDDDDDDD
you really prove me right best friend.
you don't need me
its a good good dayyyyyyy ! very very very good day :D
cause today spongebob very very sweeeeeetttttttttt :DDDDD
hehe he brought me to the movies today! and plus his grandma just strike a 10k 4D so she gave me twenty dollars HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
finished my part for efma and headed off to meet spongebob.
and spongebob is different today cause was suppose to meet him 3 o clock, but due to the project i only left school at 3 :(
but 3 o clock he already reach bugis le! and first time he waited for me, be early, without complaint! hehehehehe
he bluff me with having no more tickets for karate kid and blame me for being late :(
actually i was thinking isit true anot, cause he really look very angry. but he's an asshole and tricked me to the cinema with the tickets bought and even bought popcorn for me cause i said i haven't eaten for the day . ooooooohhhhhh heheheheheh meltxzxzxzxz :DDDD
the movie was 2.5 hrs, but i think its abit draggy.i almost wanted to fall asleep during the middle of the show. but the ending was goood, touching, expected, but i like :)
i think jayden smith is really a born actor, and he is really fit lehhhhhhhhhhhhh hehehehe >.<
finished the movie and headed to see can get any toys, hehehehe and spongebob caught me a doraemon! :DDDDDDDD thanks love!
bought octopus ball downstairs illuma which i waited for abt 10 to 15 mins? waste my time, so so only! and headed to bugis street for some small bites.
hehehehehe
but you know what, i was hungry, but we total bought three octupus balls, one sasauge egg pancake, and one prata with egg and hotdog. before the movie i bought two chicken sticks, one currypuff, plus the popcorn.
but than, spongebob ate half of my currypuff, one chicken stick,two octupus balls, half of the sasauge egg pancake, the whole of prata with egg and hotdog, and 1/3 of the popcorn.
so is he a good boyfriend or what?
so i ended up eating maggie mee at his aunt house for my first meal , THANKS UH PATRICK SHI ZHEN YU for claiming that i eat alot popcorn alrdy still want eat!
TSK!
so i ended sleeping at his aunt house and tadaaaaaa im here to waste my time hehehe
and STUPID SPONGEBOB STOP PEEPING AT WHAT I AM TYPING YOU IDIOT I LOVE YOU HEHEHEHEHEHEHE
some friends you've been through so much with, friends that you really cherish.
but someday,somehow, you see distance, you see she has other friends that can replace your existence.
how do you feel? what should i feel now?
you know, i really cherish this friendship so much that it is really affecting me.
i always tell myself to move on. so what if we're not that close anymore.
but fcuk i really cant move on. it just keep appearing in my head.
its seriously affecting my mood.
arrgggggggghhhhhh!
i don't know, but everytime i see you i don't know whether i should be happy or sad
happy cause you finally remember me and i did crossed your mind.
sad because it took you so long before you think of me.
i keep telling myself thats her character you cant blame anything.
but i'm not. i'm not that kind of friend that when you remember me than you msg me.
i really need constant reminders that i'm actually still your best friend
i don't know, i tried convincing myself so hard that its okay if we don't contact, don't see each other.
but its too difficult. for me
if this carry on i will constantly doubt am i still important in your life?
all the while i'm the one giving in to take the first move to contact you.
when am i going to be the one receiving your message first?
i know you still treat me as your bestfriend, i do too.
but just, i'm seriously feeling the distance.
you showed me you have better friends compared to me now.
sigh.
